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Life is always blue but today im not wearing blue color. I already out of baju kurung with blue color. I was too lazy to iron them out. So, just picked blouse and skirt to wear. Kind of weird because i am a blue person.
Maybe i should change it back coz i realized something this evening after my students told me so...
I am easily become madf and i have a very hot temper which is t think will be happen if and only if i entered that class. let me tell you a story that happen a moment ago during kelas tambahan. I was sitting in front of my student and talking of their friends. Then of of my student came and standing behind me.
"Cikgu, wayar cikgu macam berapi."
Saya berpaling ke belakang. "Mana."
"Berapi macam sudah rosak."
Saya tengok wayar laptop saya okey sahaja.
Kemudian, dia duduk semula. Saya sambung perundingan dengan murid saya. Beberapa orang budak lelaki di hadapan kemudian berkata;
"Cikgu, saya mahu tanya sesuatu?"
"Apa?"
"Kenapa wayar cikgu mudah berapi?"
"Mana?" saya berpaling melihat di belakang.
"Bukan, maksud kami cikgu ni mudah berapi. Cepat betu berapi."
"Saya rasa macam mahu spray itu pemadam api bila cikgu berapi."
"Ya, baik sediakan pemadam api di belakang."

Kemudian, saya terfikir. Benar. That is the truth situation. Im so easy to lost my temper, especially while teaching my favourite class.

But i believe, that, marah itu tandanya sayang.

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Salam,
how do i start? Let me intruduce about the propose of the blog first. Ohh, but let me tell you something that my grammar maybe kind of broken and please take ur time to get it towards your mind.
It a very warm evening wiht a loottts of stuff to be done, before the first week of May, and i completely, i'm completely, not done yet. I think it's time for to to express my blue feeling to the world of blue color.
I'm not in good mood right now. Just now, my officemate came by and told a story about rude student whose have high IQ but lowest EQ. no words that can describe the best about the student, but BIADAP. okey, good explaination i think. if you dont get it, explain yourself then.
Wait, that was not the main story actualy. Yes, it maybe looks the same, but it different because i experienced other myself.
Just an hour before my officemate who got blod pressure came (Alhamdulillah, i m totally in pink of health) i have to face a lot of trouble in a class that, let me tell you, that i really like them, but i didnt know why shoud i like them coz they're only broke my heart everyday. I mean, some of them surely fine, good attitude, but the other, compare with the other side, just like the heaven and the hell. bukan lagi langit dan bumi.
Surely, every Tuesday, i get mad in the class, maybe because my class at the end of the school session. Everyone are tired, including me. After looking for students that didnt have their teks book, i was looking around to make sure they were ready to begin my class. but then, while i was yelling to a student who i think was trying to test me, his after, exactly in front of me were laughing and talking for nothing.
"Kamu tak nampak ke cikgu tengah marah ni!"
To make it become real, the word marah, i shout i loud than others.
But, i didnt feel good right now. just thinking...
I was teaching about kesederhanaan, simplicity in life... but why patience level is kind of something wrong.